Ego and God-Image: Part I


Obviously we do not know how the ego arose in man. We have certain myths showing how ancient man thought about this problem, and we can observe the phenomenon in very young children today. Just as the individual child must undergo training and discipline, so too the primitive nature of man had to be housebroken and domesticated, restrained and adapted, if he was to advance in culture and in ability to control his environment. M. Esther Harding, Psychic Energy:  Its Source and its Transformation, p. 197.

The construction of the ego progresses through three chronologically unequal “epochs” of self-awareness, each of which provides a support pillar for the next span.  For most of us, the first, Epoch I, is of relatively brief duration;  the second is quite long, and the whole of life for many people; and the third sometimes does not even begin.  Each epoch generates a specific form of consciousness that directly influences the choices we make and ultimately, the future of our world.

Epoch I: Maternal Physical Consciousness

At birth our self-awareness is limited to our physical instincts and five senses. For one brief and magical moment in time, Epoch I is pure nature. In this glorious paradise where we explore the world and satisfy our physical needs, there is no yesterday, today, or tomorrow. If we have a concept of time it is that we dwell in eternity. If we have a concept of God it is this bliss of oneness, fully immersed in a maternal ocean of innocent, unconscious, infinitely pleasurable life.

Epoch II: Paternal Ego Consciousness

By around the age of three, most children’s egos are consolidated enough to think of themselves as separate individuals. Jung defined the ego as the organizing center of the conscious part of the psyche. This is usually when memory begins. Recognizing our physiological separateness from Mother and our capacity for independent action doesn’t always result in mature behavior, but it does make it possible for us to evolve into the more mature form of ego-awareness I call Epoch II.

Carl Jung reported that he was eleven when one day on his walk to school he stopped with the sudden revelation: “I am! I am what I am!” He realized that until then he had been living in a mist. From then on, his  process of maturation was slow and gradual.

The ego experiences several spurts of increased self-awareness associated with developmental stages such as adolescence, young adulthood, mid-life, and elderhood. Each stage presents new challenges which make us aware of previously unknown needs and desires. At such times, most people gain valuable self-knowledge that furthers their inner growth, but fear and habit can hold us back, and we can get stuck at any time along the way. If this happens, our psychological maturity and religious thinking can stop expanding even though our bodies and social behaviors continue to age and change.

A primary feature of Epoch II is the ego’s preference for masculine values. If Epoch I is Mother’s realm, Epoch II belongs to Father. Whether or not a personal father or other adequate male model is available, children will try to satisfy their growing need to adopt masculine values by transferring their allegiance to teachers, peer groups, teams, nations, religions, or causes.  Philosopher Michael Washburn explains:

To the child, the father is the exemplary model of independent life—especially in the traditional patriarchal household, where he is . . . a sovereign master. Accordingly, the child senses that if it can win the father’s acceptance it can enter the father’s world and thereby share in the father’s independence and extricate itself from dependence upon the mother. Michael Washburn, Transpersonal Psychology in Psychoanalytic Perspective, p. 69.

Another feature of Epoch II is dualistic thinking. It arises naturally when we separate from Mother’s realm and begin to differentiate and define ourselves. We ask ourselves, “How am I like her and how am I not? What behaviors will hurt me and what will keep me from being punished?  Who will help me and who won’t?” We sort things into pairs of clearly defined opposites: that which is desirable, or “good”, and that which is undesirable or “bad.” If we felt relatively safe and comfortable during Epoch I, we usually identify with the “good” and repress the “bad”. As a function of our drive for self-preservation, this sorting process comes so naturally that our ego doesn’t realize we’re doing it. We’re just trying to survive with minimum discomfort. Rarely do we suspect we might be shutting ourselves off from some very positive potential.

A third definitive feature is repression toward both self and other. The “bad”, dark side of dualistic thinking fosters bias, prejudice, suspicion, hostility, fear, aggression and repression. Most Epoch II egos contain their repressive tendencies without causing undue damage or harm. But there are always some who obsess over the “masculine” qualities so highly prized during this phase that they become inordinately repressive to “feminine” otherness. They can become so self-righteous and closed-minded that they gravitate, like the Sky God onto which they project these qualities, toward agitation, divisiveness, domination, and war.

More next time.

Art Credits:  Lucy Campbell. Every Morning the World is Created.  Art Wolfe: “Father Knows Best.

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8 Responses

  1. Human definitely is an unsolved puzzle! I agree with your categorising the ego during our ages, but when I think of myself as I lost my father at age seven, maybe that’s why I was so shy. I might need those days, such as sovereign figures. Anyway, an excellent article, my dear Jeane, to consider a lot.

  2. I lost my father at age 11 and lost my innocent confidence at the same time. It’s no wonder we are unsolved puzzles! Our development is influenced by so many factors in addition to life stages: genetic inheritance, personality, behavior, experiences, relationships . . . . . As much as I’ve learned about myself over the years, I’m still a mystery to myself. Thank you for your supportive comments, dear Aladin.

  3. Thanks for helping me explore my experience through this lens. Your description of “Epoch 1” reminds me of the joy of holding a newborn or young baby in my arms. They’re in touch with something otherworldly and angelic. This doesn’t last long, but it’s so different from the next stage of defining self which has so much to do with separating and rejecting (No, No, No!) rather than opening to the wonder of life.

    My self-awareness came riding in on catastrophes and beauty. First my father’s near death a few times and seeing him in the hospital when I was not quite three and finding my mother sobbing with no explanation. I knew something was scary wrong and my mother’s reassurance couldn’t be trusted. On the side of beauty, my next memories are the vast Grand Canyon and a sunset over the Painted Desert in AZ when I was four. Both experiences were mystical openings and when I returned to those places as an adult, the intensity of the feeling of Oneness was still there. And we’ll see what happens next… Sending you all goodness and love.

    1. I love your play on the first image: “My self-awareness came riding in on catastrophes and beauty.” I don’t think I can say the same. Mine rode in on masculine betrayal with the traumatic awareness of my mortality between ages 10 and 11: first the Lone Ranger shot me in my dream, then my father died. My mystical awareness lit up at age 17, when I took my eyes off Mother Nature and began to look up to a Father God for salvation and deliverance. Oneness grabbed my attention much later, and once again, through trauma. However self-awareness and oneness show up, it does help to have a timeline and a story to explore our experience through doesn’t it? Sending goodness and love back to you.

  4. Thank you Jeanie for this wonderful post so clearly delineated and articulated. I see myself in both. I look forward to your words on Epoch 3. Love, Susan

  5. Thank you, Susan. Jung saw what I would consider an Epoch IV and I’m glimpsing traces of it now too, but may not write about it in this series. Perhaps that will come into clearer focus in a later book. Love, Jeanie

  6. Dear Jeanie,

    What a wonderful post and welcome reminder to return to your third magickal book, ‘Healing the Sacred Divide’, once I’ve found my way out of King Minos’s labyrinth (I’m reading a wonderful novel about the Greek Goddess Ariadne, at the moment). Reading others’ comments here and your replies to them adds such richness. I’m already looking forward to your next one!

    I’m sure this will resonate with everyone, in that somewhere in midlife (for me it happened around the age of 45) I felt myself slowly returning to the ‘Garden of Eden’ from which I was immersed in as a child … which for me didn’t vanish until I was nine years old. I remember the time clearly, it was like a needle being scratched loudly across a record, as my life as I knew it, felt over.

    From then on, I felt lost for so long in a world I felt I didn’t belong too, until I learnt a few of the basic patriarchal rules and began to fit in, well, kind of until I came out as a gay woman at 33, which promptly alienated me further (at the time). However and fortunately, midlife opened a magickal door for me (another way of looking at this could be that this was the time I emerged from my chrysalis) and I’ve never looked back.

    See what you inspire! Thank you.

    Love and light, Deborah.

  7. Thank you, Deborah. Yes, this post was taken from a chapter in Healing the Sacred Divide. It’s been very helpful to my understanding of myself to look back at my life and see how I made my way through it up to the present time. Lately I’ve been revisiting some unfinished business from childhood and adolescence in the early stages of Epoch II. From the perspective of age I can see how being stoic and refusing to grieve or rebel when the circumstances called for these honest responses was a mistake. As you well know, damming up authentic feelings doesn’t make them go away. It just reroutes them through underground caverns until they find another way and time to reach the surface of my ego’s awareness! I wish I’d gotten them out when it would have been appropriate instead of having to deal with them again all these years later!! Hmm. This sounds like a topic for another blog post. See what you inspire!! Much love, Jeanie

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