Mandorla Consciousness: Part II
There is a time for everything. The dualism that gave rise to our evolving ego and developing Christ potential has become our worst enemy: the anti- Christ. And as long as we repress unwanted parts of ourselves and project them onto others—whether these be our compulsive instincts, dangerous emotions, or frightening aspects of our masculine and feminine sides—we will struggle through the darkness of confusion and the world will be a dangerous place.
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Hi Jeanie, In pure synchronicity I found myself reading your most excellent post today and it’s really got me thinking! Earlier today I posted a poem on my blog all about the darkness of my own abusive childhood (it’s a difficult read) and now I’m left wondering ,,, was is it the wounded Shadow child or the Self who posted? Or could both be working, and integrating on this my creative expression … could the Self be helping my wounded child?
I recognise that the wounded child in me needs to speak, and the very act of writing ‘Once upon an Ordinary Day’ felt right and necessary in order to heal yet I’m aware that it was ‘indeed’ the wounded child who picked up the pen, feeling betrayed and wanting revenge ‘yet’ desperately wanted to share her life experiences so that others felt less alone, more understood … is this where Shadow and Self work together? I would love to hear your thoughts on this way of being. Blessings, Deborah. 🙂
Hi Deborah, you’ve beautifully expressed the kind of dilemma I’m addressing here. Yes, the wounded child most definitely needs a voice, and giving it one is a gift of wisdom and healing from an ego that wishes to connect with the True Self. Any kind of creative work that addresses our inner lives can be a medium for healing if our ego will allow it, listen carefully to the shadow—whether it’s a hurt child, angry woman, critical bully, or any number of characters—and forgive it. Writing poetry is one of the best healing mediums i know, along with dreamwork. The shadow then becomes a point of entry wherein the ego and Self can communicate. Persisting in this process gradually lessens the toxic power of the shadow and eases the pain.
By the way, your comment was very helpful to me. I’ve slightly rewritten the last paragraph to clarify this issue even more. Thank you.
Thank you so much for coming back to me Jeanie on this topic, truly appreciated. I love what you say about the Shadow becoming ‘a point of entry’ … I have never thought about that in regard to my poetry before yet I can see that it is perfectly true! Indeed it is a place where ego, self and shadow meet … oh my goddess I love that, what a dance they all have!!!
Many thanks for sharing that poetical insight, I shall endeavour to persist breaking down more toxic power with the power of my pen! Thank you.
You’re very welcome! And while you were writing this lovely comment, I was editing the last part of my post once again in the hope of providing more clarity and insights! Like poetry, writing my blog posts helps me as much as I hope it helps others, especially when I receive valuable input from like-minded readers! Thank you.
Excellent, I love, love, love number 5!!! Like-minded souls, ah! the feelings most definitely mutual, I love to visit the font of wisdom that is your blog! 🙂
Number 5 is now number 6! 🙂 This is still a work in progress.
Thankyou, Jean! It is remarkable. We take care of our children for so many years, and then miraculously, they take care of us!
Yes, isn’t it the best reward ever when we see the consciousness of our children surpassing our own? I can’t imagine what could be a better contribution to the world!
The synchronicity of this post is amazing. The other night I dreamt that I was in a room, but no matter what I did the person guarding the room wouldn’t let me out or they let me think I was in a different room. No matter whether I fought the person or tried being sneaky I could not get away from this situation. I awoke in tears with my heart palpitating. I think I have not taken charge of my life nor spoken up about my life sometimes. It is interesting to see what my mind has been processing. In my childhood I couldn’t do what I wanted, always what my parents directed. Someplace I have fallen back into this mode of operation. Taking charge of my happiness is up to me. Thanks for the reminder.
What a marvelous insight this is. I’m so glad this post confirmed it. I see synchronicities like this as evidence of the underlying benevolence of the Mystery that governs every aspect of life. I think this may be an important crossroads awareness for you that points to a new and fuller way of thinking and being. I hope you’ll let me know if and how you take steps to enter it more fully. You didn’t ask for advice so I hope you won’t mind if I tell you that if this were my dream I’d begin with some sort of creative expression that could help me clarify and firm up my resolve….. Blessings, and thank you for writing.
I assumed it would be inappropriate for me to ask for advice from you… but I’d LOVE it! In fact, I have found a new opportunity to volunteer which will also give me the opportunity to meet more people. My husband is a TYPE A +++ personality and NOT social. So I am looking for more ways to make me happy and to find joy in life. I am running into more women in the same boat. I am learning to stand up for me. Thank you for your comments!!!!!
It’s not inappropriate, but it’s very thoughtful of you to be mindful about not imposing! I appreciate that, but I don’t mind at all when someone is genuinely looking for insights related to one of my posts. Good luck with your new volunteer opportunity. I hope it brings more clarity about what you need and how to acquire it.
Thank you Jeanie for this … I still puzzle over a betrayal that happened in early July in a group of which I’m no longer a part – and while I think I’ve consciously let it go it still rears its ugly head. Your post addresses my issue in a very meaningful and constructive way ..
I’m very glad to hear this, Susan. As I write this I’m in the middle of writing a new post for next week on the same topic. I hope it will bring you more insights about the psychological underpinnings of this experience.
Ah, those betrayals and our need to understand them. To me, the interpersonal flares that tighten my belly and nag at me in the night are puzzles where I learn more about myself (after I stop reacting). Often not what I want to know about myself, but I like the relationship dance and a deep relationship means dealing with clashes. In recent years, I disappointed a friend. She can’t or won’t be specific and refuses to explore the issues with me. I suggested talking with a third party present, a therapist friend or her therapist. She refused. In time, after many tries, I backed away and stopped trying to work it out in relationship. As I’ve dug into my side of this with my therapist, I see my friend’s mother complex running the show with full cooperation of mine. Despite giving more support than any other person outside my family, I failed to fill the hole left by a neglectful mother.
Oh yes, indeed. This particular flare was the one that finally helped me see my mother complex in action! Since then it’s been a zillion times easier to be aware of it and handle my feelings quickly and with more grace! I’m sorry about your losing your friend. I haven’t lost this one, but she no longer carries my mother complex which means she has no more power to hurt me and I have no need to feed hers. Aren’t we lucky to be figuring these things out about ourselves at last?
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This originally appeared four years ago. I’m posting it again because it has been one of my most widely-read. Next week I’ll post its sequel. Enjoy.
Thank you. This is movingly put, and chimed with me.
Not least because I’m just working on a post about embracing the messy soul 🙂
In the way you write about your mother a love shines through. As children, with little or no defense against a parent’s behaviour, we are bound to carry forward a mindset based on anxieties of, for example, rejection into later relationships. And while it is a revelation to recognize a complex that might shift things in our lives, there remains, let say, the mother who was unable to overcome her own complex. Grief about mothers can linger on, does in me, anyway. Almost like a loyalty to what could have been.
Aah. The messy soul. I can’t wait to read that one! Today recorded seven dreams after being away from my computer all weekend and talk about messy! Half the time my dream ego had no idea where I was or why or what was going on and it took working on all seven for most of the day to begin to get what the Self was trying to tell me. There are lots of messy losses and new births going on now and it’s not easy to sort out this mess. But I have to say, I still find it to be great fun.
“Almost like a loyalty to what could have been.” Well said. Yes, grief about my mother still lingers on too. “Wouldn’t it have been wonderful if she had been this way instead of that way,” etc. But then, if she’d been different, who knows what kind of person I would be today? Even if I could, I really wouldn’t change a thing about her. I think I got the perfect mother for being me.
Thanks for writing. Good luck with your next post. I look forward to it. 🙂
Thank you. I agree, my mother was the perfect mother for being me. I finally, after much hesitation, I posted something on -embracing the messy soul. I included a link to your wonderful site.
To my readers: here’s the link to the post to which courseofmirrors refers above. I think you’ll like it. https://courseofmirrors.wordpress.com/2019/11/05/embracing-the-messy-soul/#comment-5899
Thank you for sharing this ‘mindful’ & enlightening story with us.
But please let me get back to the more general question of the title, the ‘Jungian’ question of who is in charge,
the Self or the shadow. This might shine some ‘back light’ on the whole issue, adds a different perspective to it.
Of course most people are left in the ‘dark’ or unconscious about their subconsciousness, and this is where
the great misconception often begins. This ‘dark side’ of our psyche (life) is as real & ‘alive’ as the causes
shading it from the ‘light’ source.
This leaves the people themselves, or their Ego, standing in the way of the ‘enlightenment’.
But again, being unconscious about this simple phenomenon, living in the dark about this
subconscious part of them-Self, the lower ‘floor’ of their ‘house’ (so C.G. Jung), makes them
oblivious of all the wanted or unwanted ‘stuff’ of ‘feelings’ entering thru the ‘backdoor’ of the ‘house’.
While everybody is concentrating on the ‘intelligently’ illuminated, the obvious, public
‘front-side’, masses of unsorted goods as well as overwhelming amounts of ‘dirt’ are ‘delivered’
thru the sensory ‘backdoor’.
But since all these uncensored ‘feelings’ arouse or trigger certain emotions and people
rather act on emotions than on intelligent considerations, this ‘dark side’ of our Subconsciousness
becomes the ‘secret key’ to our behavior.
Since our entire socio-economic paradigm is build on consumption & exploitation, it became necessary
to mold the individual into a congruent & compliant consumer or the infamous cannon fodder.
Trying to manipulate, influence or control the behavior of the people is now common practice and the
favored ‘game’ of the media. From science & ‘education’ to political propaganda, from internet memes to
multisensory marketing & promotions everybody is ‘hooked’ on this infantile & treacherous ‘game’ with
the social-emotions of oneself & others.
With an immature Self, an ‘intelligence’ stripped of its social-emotional constituent and
an ‘arrested development’ of sapiens nobody is ‘in charge’ anymore.
Our Self casts a shadow on the uncensored feelings triggering the uncontrolled emotions
on which we blindly act upon.
Thank you again
Yes, yes, and yes! Thank you for adding this deeper dimension to the discussion of the Shadow and the Self. The dark side is, indeed, as real and alive and essential to everyone’s nature as is the light side. And our unconscious, and the collective unconscious of humanity which we all share, contains both. Moreover, we’re all driven by unconscious motivations which we fail to notice because we don’t take the emotions of our inner lives seriously. If we can’t see them, and if no one else can see them, then we believe they’re unimportant. And so we neglect the parts of us that must be consciously integrated into our awareness if we are ever to rise above unconscious conformity and into individual authenticity and integrity.
But it’s the Ego, the center of consciousness, that’s doing all this ignoring and denying of the reality of the unconscious. Like Jung, I see the Self (with a capital S) as the autonomous, unconscious core and circumference of the personality. As such it is not the same as the small Ego self which thinks it runs the show, while ignoring all the archetypal forces that comprise the Big Self. It’s only when the Ego self can acknowledge the Shadow within that it can step aside and stop trying to ‘be in charge’ and have its way, including revenge, etc. Seeing one’s own shadow instead of trying to project it onto everyone ‘out there’ creates great suffering and humbles the ego enough that it can see that it’s not in charge at all. Only this suffering and humility have the power to tame the Ego and allow the authentic, sacred Self to manifest the integrity and love that is its true essence.
Thank you for writing and elaborating on this important reality. It’s crucial that we acquire greater psychological understanding and awareness before we do ourselves in!!
” . . . we’re all driven by unconscious motivations which we fail to notice because we don’t take the emotions of our inner lives seriously.”
I agree, learning to recognize unconscious motivations (and blind spots) in our personal interactions with others is important.
And yet, this is only part of a much larger story. None of us exists in an emotional vacuum. In a connected world, there are other realities and greater truths to consider, truths beyond our own (emotional) worlds and needs. Other people’s feelings and realities are as important to them as ours are to us. Our attention and focus are guided and/or limited by what we value and are willing to see.
Most of us are dreaming a dream shaped by our ‘worldly’ conditioning and the lies we’ve been told. Lies that form the basis of our spiritual and political communities,friendships, lives and thinking. Lies that bring comfort, pleasure, status and a sense of belonging to some, death and suffering to others. These are the lies that shape our unconscious responses. Those of us drawn to (Jung-influenced) psycho-spiritual exploration are not immune. None of us can teach or recognize what we don’t know, though our ability to expound and draw upon theory or technique may have us believing otherwise.
Truth is the (metaphoric) sword that divides and disturbs. It makes us less certain about everything, centered only in our humblest pursuit of it. Truth breaks us open and makes us smaller, also more compassionate and forgiving, as we begin to see and recognize pieces of ourselves and our former resistance in everyone. This has been my experience. I’m still learning.
“The hero of my tale, whom I love with all the power of my soul, whom I have tried to portray in all his beauty, who has been, is, and will be beautiful, is Truth.” ~ Leo Tolstoy
It was lovely to re-read this Jeanie, as fresh today as it was then while at the same time making me re-look at when my voice is to be used or not. The person in question never remembers his awful behaviour the day after the night before – never. He would deny it even if it there were witnesses. Much as I would love to voice this to his wife who is very close to me about this particular fairly recent personal encounter, I just simply cannot. She knows about his behaviour when he’s under the influence and does not engage with him when he’s ‘out of it’. I have told one or two – it was necessary for clarity for me. It helped talking about it.
I did the same thing with my situation. Talking about it openly and honestly with a few trusted friends helped me put it all in perspective and put the whole issue to bed. I’m very glad now that I never confronted the person in question. I think that in this case I was caught up in shadow issues that made her ‘betrayal’ seem a lot worse than it really was. 🙂